Friday, 26 August 2016

Guest Blogger



Waiting for a diagnosis of any condition can be frustrating, especially when you are experiencing symptoms and you are unable to treat them…
Katy tells her story of how she waited 12 years before she was diagnosed with epilepsy.

I was finally diagnosed with epilepsy in April, after 12 long years of not knowing what was wrong with me…
My falls, twitches, jerks and tics were later diagnosed as atonic and myoclonic seizures.
In February, my health took a severe turn for the worse and I spent weeks having test after test. I think I’ve been to pretty much every department in the hospital now!
Eventually, I saw a neurologist who arranged for me to have an EEG. Thankfully, they managed to provoke a seizure – by having me breathe in and out very deeply – during the EEG and they could immediately see it was epilepsy.
Finally, I had the answer I had been waiting for.
Of course, I expected a miraculous recovery and by the weekend I would be back to my old self. Sadly, it doesn’t work like that and epilepsy medication is a tricky thing…

Finding the right medication

It takes months to get to the right dose and be fully effective. Sometimes you may need more than one type of medication or to gradually increase the dose until the seizures are under control.
Nobody told me how exhausted I would be, how I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed some days. The levels of medication were so high that I felt like a zombie and was still having some seizures.
I’m still very much a work in progress and I speak to my neurologist and epilepsy nurse on a regular basis.

Keeping myself safe

I use an app on my phone to track my seizures, which I find really useful. I can add triggers and side effects to my medication. I can also print it off and take it to my appointments.
I have been referred to a care team to have an alarm to wear around my neck for when I am home alone. It will give me peace of mind that I won’t be stranded on the floor all day while everybody is out.
Nobody wants to be diagnosed with epilepsy but these are the first steps to getting my life back. At the moment I am housebound, in a wheelchair and unable to do even simple things alone.
With the right help and support I will be back to being independent again and living, instead of just surviving.
To anybody looking for a diagnosis…I would say keep pushing, don’t give up and make sure you get heard.
Many professionals will try and dismiss you and I was told many times it was anxiety or stress. Keep going back until somebody listens to you.

Monday, 1 August 2016

A Complicated Case

When a neurologist describes you as a "complicated case" that is never good news! Today I saw a different neurologist who was completely useless. He had no idea about me apart from that I was "complicated" and sent me away while he had a think about what to do next. So we wait and see. My referral to the care team has been sent so I should be getting my alarm soon fingers crossed. Other than that it's business as usual with my medication until they come up with a different plan.

At the moment I see the following health professionals on a regular basis...

Neurologist
Epilepsy Nurse
Rheumatologist
Rheumatology Nurse
Cardiology Clinic
GP
Occupational Therapist
Physio

It's a full time job just keeping up with hospital visits. There are probably more I've forgotten about.

The good news is that I had three days seizure free from Friday to Sunday. It must have been the kick to the head Laura gave me! Whatever it was it was just nice to have some respite. Back to some seizures today but can't complain really. I got three gold stars in a row on my app, I felt like I won the lottery!

We've got a busy few days coming up so I just hope I don't get really bad. I have to be really careful not to get giddy when I feel a bit better and do too much. It always comes back to bite me on the bum. I'm looking forward to some time with family and friends and hopefully not scaring small children!


Friday, 29 July 2016

Who Am I

Memory problems are a big issue with epilepsy and epilepsy medications. There is also a common problem for people with fibromyalgia called "Fibro Fog". Put them together and a lot of the time I have a case of the light is on but there is nobody home. Contrary to popular belief I do have a fully working brain occasionally! Those times are few and far between at the moment though.

Last week I took my tea out of the freezer, put it on my plate and tried to eat it. Completely forgetting most important part of cooking it.

On Wednesday I text Chris to remind him about something but I had no idea what it was, I've had friends come round that I've completely forgotten I've invited. I've put cereal in the fridge, milk in the cupboards. I have no idea where I put things.

I can remember the date of my holiday in 1988 but my short term memory has gone. Chris can tell me something and I'll immediately forget. It's amusing and frustrating in equal measures.

A big shout out to Sam boy who tried to teach me how to do a Rubik's cube yesterday in these circumstances. I think I must have been your most challenging student!

Also big thanks to my lovely friends who took such good care of me yesterday. Especially Laura who stuck her foot out to protect my head when I fell!

Wednesday, 27 July 2016

Leanne

A year ago today I attended the funeral of my good friend Leanne. She was 36 and died from a brain tumour, leaving behind a husband and three young children. I think about Leanne a lot while i'm dealing with all these problems. She dealt with her illness and prognosis with such dignity. I'll never forget when she told me her tumour was stage 4 and she was dying. She was so matter of fact about it, she could have been telling me what she'd had for tea. She never complained, never made a song and dance about it. She just got on with it. When my symptoms first started getting worse in February my main fear was a brain tumour. It was such a relief that it was "just" epilepsy. I'm not sure I would have handled it with as much grace as Leanne did. As always my thougts are with her family today. She is very much missed by us all.

Tuesday, 26 July 2016

Emily's Story

Monday, 25 July 2016

Mummy Went Splat

I've been trying to find different ways to help the kids deal with my seizures and one thing they find hilarious is when I go "splat" on the floor. I decided to use this to write a book/poem for Emily to read before bed. I wrote it last night so it's very much a work in progress but she loves it. Even James laughed and he's a pretty harsh critic.


"Mummy Went Splat"

My mummy thinks she is a superhero
I don't know why she thinks that
Because every time she tries to walk
My mummy goes splat

My mummy pretends she's in the circus
Doing moves like an acrobat
She wibbles and wobbles, tries to stay up
But mummy still went splat

My mummy sits with me in the sunshine
But I don't want to wear my hat
She tries to come and chase me
Oh dear, mummy's gone splat

My mummy tries to cook my tea
And carries it onto the mat
I can see where this is going, uh oh
My mummy went splat

My mummy takes me to bed at night
Tucks me in with Kitty Cat
She leans over to give me a kiss
Oh mummy you went splat

My mummy says she's a superhero
Now I know why she thinks that
Because she still tries to look after me
Even when she goes splat

Sunday, 24 July 2016

A Gold Star/Sleepy Sunday

So proud of myself because I got a gold star woo hoo! I have an app on my phone to track my seizures. If I have a seizure free day then it pops up with a gold star. If only I got a real gold star sticker to wear all day. That would be amazing.

I'm calling today Sleepy Sunday as I only managed to stay awake for half an hour this afternoon. Just long enough to eat a sandwich. I woke up again late this afternoon to a full roast dinner cooked my wonderful husband. Life's not so bad! A couple of falls along the way but can't complain too much. I had to be rescued from the bathroom floor but that's pretty standard these days. Maybe a gold star tomorrow, we will see.